Posted By Afro-Awesome Guest contributor
On Sep 29, 2016
By Sibu Malungu
I am awake
Dreams have been shattered
I am grateful
I am in pain
My hope for us is gone
But it’s okay
Now I can fully embrace another
Damn, I am here again? Lying to myself
When I know that my heart may never heal
My hope may never be returned
And the innocent will have to be my tourniquet
I am not grateful…or maybe I should be
With every reality snap back, I grow
Or maybe I just give up
See, philosophy has it all figured out
Sadly, my heart chooses not that route
The pain kills me, I don’t grow
I can’t let go
But I am here again
Am I demented? Why can’t I leave this undefended love?
Have I been defeated?
Quotes have prescribed the steps
Yet I keep going from 1 to 3 and back to negatives
My condition isn’t as easy as ABC
Damn it!!! Where are the real solutions?
I can’t come back here
Love should never be a condition or so the poets say
But it is for me, what kind of reality takes no prescribed solutions?
Take away the pain of loving
Take it with you
take my heart too.
I may never own it back.
I am here, confused and broken
But pretending to be healing
Dealing the cards life dealt
Or did you deal them?
Maybe I did
with no one else
But I am here
Angry and so in love
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